I will pull through. No matter what.
This is my story of my last year at home, If I get out alive.
Moving day Feb.6.09
The way my host (webs.com) lets you edit you site is both akward and long. The Blog it self will be will be moving but the rest of the sight is saying right where it is, so no worries.
Im useing blogspot now, its much easyer and way faster then useing webs.com. Now without further ado, here is the new blog: http://heydrew.blogspot.com/
The Video Log
Heres the youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/Drewz91
It will prolly be updated at least once every two weeks.
Beware, my spelling/typeing horrible
12.26.08 X-Mas time
I would love Cristmas a little more if I did not have to spend it wit my family. My step dad got into a fight with my 8 year old sister earlyer. When he thought no one was around he wisperd to her that he was gonna call the cops on her and have them take her away, on christmas eve.
Yes, insanity, I know.
I got a job finaly, have I told you? Its great, I work at "Soup to Nuts Coffe House" I love it. I really do. I only work 3 days a week for the second half shift, so It wont pay for an appartment...but its a start.
I did the last of christmas shopping after work on cristmas eve. (yeah I know, a little late right? lol) While I was walking down Main Street I saw this shabby, bearded guy with big trash bag digging through a public trash can. I didnt realize what he was doing until I saw him pull out a beer bottle and drop it into the snow bank. I walked past him about a step, stopped, and got two dollars out of my wallet. I turned to him and said "Hey man..." He looked up from the garbage can and after a second noticed the $2 I was holding out to him. He took the money and there was a look bettween disbelief and happynes on him face. He said "Hey man, thanks, thats real nice." I said "Your wellcome" and started to walk away. "Merry Cristmas!" he called to me. "Same to you" I said, and crossed the street. There, that was my good deed for the day. When I got home my parents were fighting as always. What of, I dont know. Something about the couch.
Why am I telling you this? I dont really know, I just felt as though it was worth shareing.
Was it?
Well whatever. Happy Holidays everybody. You rock.
-Drew
Dec.21.08
Here, friendship means ppl who have the right to demoralize you, make fun of you, pull pranks on you, steal you stuff, and "barrow" money from you. Except, scince these are your friends, its okay, they get a free "get get out of any guilt, trouble, or consiqenses" pass for all the stuff they do to you.
Hey heres the funny part...
My enimes do the same thing.
Something is smell fishy there but I just cant seem to put my finger on it...hmmmmm
I really hope that by collge people grow the fuck up or something.
On another note, rumors are flying around that a certian someone likes me, again*. (*not the same person just I heard someone likes me again. D: And frankly, I dont know what to do nor how to approch her about it. I dont even know her all that well, (though I wish I knew her more.) She was inrtoduced to me through one of my friends. I guess Im just waiting for her to do somethng about it I guess cuz I dont have a clue...
Then on the last 2 days of the week, last week, every time I said hi to her in the halls she looked really sad or pissed and did not wave back, GAH!? Im so confused...
Well, Im done my shift at work, closeing time. Time to walk home In a blizzard across two briges, twenty miles with a crappy-ass coat, then once I get there get made to feel like crap by my drug-riddled step-dad.
Oh, did I mention its a blizzard outside?
Yep, its a blizzard outside.
And oh look! Its getting dark! Im so darn lucky!
December.1.08 Really? Is that nessacary?
November.7.08 Aches and Pains
I feel dead inside, Im not suicidal like I used to be(DONT ASK) but at times whats happening now seems worse. My stepfather is destroying my family and theres nothing we can do about it because he never gets caucht with the drugs he does, he takes all the pills the instant he buys them practicly. Hes even a sex offender (he raped someone when he was 18 or something like that) you would think that the law would go extra-hard on him!
Everything just makes me feel like shit. It really doesnt help that the girl who was (and still is) my first love has nearly all the same friends I do and so I see her all the time. Its not that I dont want to her, its just that when I was with her, I always felt better about everything. All the shit my step-dad and life in genral, would give me never hurt when I was with her. Im not sure why...but that what happend. She was like a shield. I guess just knowing that there was a girl out there that loved me with all her spirit just made everything feel better. And the best part of it all, was that I too, loved her dearly. The One Thing that I had wanted and needed for so long had finaly happend. But that all came crashing down when she told me she was moving at the end of the school year, and even more so when at the start of the next school year she magicly appeared in school and made it nigh* imposible for me to talk to her...
Now I just feel dead and lost...I had a mental beak down in PC servicing during a test...I dont wanna even talk about that....I just went a little crazy, someone made a joke, I started laughing, a did not stop for 1 and a half hours.
Even at my age, the loss of love hits hard. And without a real family to call my own...I fear I am really alone in this world. I have many good and close friends, but friendship (at least not in this world) does not come as close as the bonds and ties that come with a family or lover. I have nither.
I feel as if I have no bonds to this world, as if a sudden breeze may blow me away never to be seen again.
I feel like I have no ties to anything.
I feel so...
...unattached...
Also, meet my step-dad.
http://sor.informe.org/cgi-bin/sor/step3.pl?id=4326&search=2&city=VASSALBORO&limiter=
November.1.08 Post halloween nap
Now me, Ernest, Alex, Frankie, and Aaron are just handing out at Alex's. (Im able to get out cuz my dad thinks Im working somewhere) Ernest is sleeping....For an Hour now Ive been fighting the insane urge to "Do you want to touch me" REALLY LOUD to wake him up.
Anyway Im typein this from my laptop witch got here a week ago. FINALLY!!!!
!!!!Buuuut at the same time my desktop PC's hard drive shit the bed so I brought it into PC serviceeing class to fix it.
Last Wendsday a girl named (no names plz!), (who I sorta know because I go to school with of course but last time I remeber talked to me was when she said she hated me) asked me to do Algeria (=a huge dancing thing most schools have) with her, as her partner. This of course was odd, so I asked what brought this on. All was able to get out of her was that she "understood me better" Well I know there must me SOMETHING going on here but I have no idea what.
At the same time I heard a romor that going around that someone likes me.
Something BAD is going to happen soon...I can feel it...
...See you all again sometime!
-Drew
October/1/08 Awww damn...
Well while I am still waiting for my new laptop to GET here, my windows PC decides to shit the bed.
Great.
So I bring to class at the technical center to have my teacher take a look at it. Turns out all the data off the harddrive had somehow been erased. INCLUDEING THE OPERATEING SYSTEM. (jesus, right afater I finaly got all the programs I wanted ON the damn thing.)
So I ran outta time in class cuz we had a college fair so next class Im gonna try instaling windows on it AGAIN.
Speaking of the college fair, I think I actualy did something no stsudent has ever done at a college fair. I CHOSE(for sure) What college I want to got to! Southern Maine Community College. Wanna know why? IT HAS A GAME PROGRAMING COURSE!
If your wondering why that sooo great its because The only line of work I want to go into is game deghin and programing and there arent any colleges in maine that offer it, until now!
sweet!^o^
Homecoming Dance on Saturday, hope I dont make a fool of myself.
Sept/11/08 IM ALIVE!!!
I though I would die without Internet! HOLY SHIT!!
Any let me start off by saying Im sorry For not giving you all an Update even though the events that caused all this were comletly out of my control.
First: My mom decided to get rid of the interent so she could spend more money on drugs. Great job mom, right?
Second: I could not go to any wi-fi hotspots and get on the internet because the battery in my laptop decided to finaly wear out.
Thierd: It has taken FOREVER to get enough money to replace the battey (as I have not been able to find a job.) But after I while I realzed Scince my laptop is getting old I will instead get a new one. This one would not have to be powerful (as my recently upgreaded desktop could now handle all the gameing) as the last one, all I need is one to get around the internet on, so I orederd this: http://www.tigerdirect.com/applications/SearchTools/item-details.asp?EdpNo=3981689&CatId=17
I am still waiting for it.
Fourth and Final: MAIL IS SLOW. Thats all I need to say (plus it takes 14 days for a tellers check to pass
)
Anywho my stepdad is getting worse, he blames everything that happens on me now espsacly the gross crap. Like last night he used the bathroom, Then screamed " OO PLUGED UP DA SHIT CAN?!!!" Well seeing as how he was the one who craped in so loud the nieghbors could hear it Im guessing it was him but I was of course screamed at in bad english and punished for alegidly cloging up the toilet.
Well thats what my summers been like, hows yours?
Again, sorry for no update, and sorry for no video, Im typeing this at school and we cannot upload stuff at school.